Conversation with Mom part 10003497

Tonight I was watching CSI with my mom, which we normally do and the following conversation ensued:

Mom: You know Valarie Bertanelli? She was married to that guy in Van Halen? His name is Eddie something or another. You know they sing that song Jump. What is it?
Me: Van Halen. His name is Eddie Van Halen. He is the one jumping.
Mom: Really? I always thought Van was the first name.

Doh!

The context was a class discussion and how she was cooler than her students because she knew that Eddie No Known Last Name from Van Halen was married to Valarie from the Jenny Craig commercials.

HAHAHAHAH! This is a typical conversation.

I have got to start telling myself that: just because you can't win doesn't mean you are a loser.

I know this and I normally don't care about wining because I hate competition. However there are just some things that I want and well...I guess I am going to have to try harder and remember that not everyone hates me.

I am so lonely and bored. I really miss my friends today. I keep offering to fly Jason out here to visit me but he refuses to let me spend money on him, but isn't that what best friends are for? I don't care about money. I must want my friends. I keep trying to make friends here but everyone already seems to have their little clique or group and don't really like to let new people join. Oh well...try harder. Work harder. Etc.

I know I feel lost and directionless because I can't get over Portland and Reed and people there. To find my path I am going to have to move on (and stop thinking about the past), enjoy it for what it was but move on.

Careers (my thoughts)

Cross posted to my lj with the whole list available there.

1.Director of Photography
Fair Match (I would totally do this)

2.Historian
Good Match (woot)

3.Animator
Fair Match (hmmm...)

4.Desktop Publisher
Fair Match (*yawn*)

5.Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
Fair Match (Banky Edwards at your service (and I really hope you know where this comes from))

6.Set Designer
Fair Match (hot)

7.Costume Designer
Fair Match (I knew this would be one)

8.Artist
Very Good Match (I like money too much, but it would be wonderful)

9.Musician
Very Good Match (what!!!!!I don't know how to play anything)

10.Medical Illustrator
Fair Match (What the hell is this?)

But I also liked:
13.Comedian
Good Match (I have thought about this one)

15.Dancer
Very Good Match (what like exotic?)

20.Critic
Very Good Match (Who isn't surprised?)

25.Professional Athlete
Fair Match (HAHAHAHAHAHA!)

31.Political Aide
Fair Match (I don't do that)

40.Corporate Trainer
Very Good Match (My mom says yes, I would, I say pant suits eeek)

To get your own:
1. Go to http://www.careercruising.com/;
2. Put in Username: nycareers, Password: landmark;
3. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions;

So, today I spent with my father and grandmother. We went to breakfast and then to see a movie, The Last Legion. I can see why the movie never really made the top list or whatever, but it was entertaining and was creative enough for mind to believe in it slightly. However, I spent most of the time comparing it to the Aneid, but I guess that is what happens when your first college class impresses the importance of the "classics" on you and your fellow students.

I have over 30 mosquito bites and I am so itchy. Not as itchy as last year, granted, but itchy none-the-less. I can smell fall in the air and it pleases me. I love fall, it is my favorite season. Everything smells lovely. It is cool and crisp. And it sets my imagination into overdrive. I haven't decided on my Halloween costume yet, though I doubt I will have any place to go to wear said costume. Hmmmm. It really is too bad. I wish I had more friends here that way we could get dressed up and have a crazy party or something. Oh well, I can't wait for fall to really set in.

I continue to look at grad schools and my list continues to grow, not narrow, which is bad thing, I think. So far I have (in no order):
Tufts (history and museum studies)
Duke (history)
UCLA (film studies)
Berkley (folklore)
UT Austin (history, folklore, film)
UNM (history)

Also:
Stirling in Scotland (environmental history)

However theses choices do no bring me any closer to choosing a path for my life. I still have no freaking clue what I want to do with my life. None. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Nada. I wish sometimes I had grown up knowing what I wanted to do with my life...because then it would be simpler, not knowing has allowed much more freedom.

I think I need to go on a vision quest. I told my mom the other day that I wanted to be apprenticed out to a Shaman or medicine woman and live on the reservation. I feel this deep connection with Native American peoples, esp. the Lakota.

Well off to sleep and then to work. I gotta work hard for the money.

Hello All,

First, welcome to my public blog. I have decided to create one to keep all interested parties updated on my daily life. Enjoy!

As of right now I am working for the military as a contracted archeological assistant. This means I look at fun things in dirt that they find on the base. I really can't tell you much more because that is what happens when you work for the military. It is sometimes very boring and at other times totally fascinating. It pays well and gives me something to do while I look for a path to follow.

This path has several possibilities. I am looking into MA programs in history, film, and Native American studies. I would love to run the History Channel and take over the world. However, in the short term, I think I am going to start writing screenplays and short documentaries and look for funding to shoot them. I am also going to start taking classes at UTEP just to stay in loop of school, because I miss it so much.

In my personal life...hmmm. Nothing is really happening. I am spending more time with my grandmother and enjoying her as a person and not just a relative. She has also promised to teach me how to cook, so soon I will be able to whip up some delicious Mexican food. I am also looking for possible ways to get me back to Scotland, at least for a year, because I loved it so much.

I must say post Reed is very strange because I find I have all this free time to do things, yet I don't know what to do with myself. Hopefully I sort out all this post grad angst and just enjoy being in the world.